Surging

Surging is the new word for today. My heart feels like its racing. I'm shaking. I'm really really nauseous. Andeverythingfeelsjustlikethiswhenitisgoingoninsidemyhead. I keep panicking that I've forgotten something. Something I'm supposed to be doing or left somewhere. It's crazy. Like that feeling when you wake up all of a sudden in a panic that you are late but then realize you aren't? That's how I've been feeling about 20 times a day or more the last few days. I'm so ready for it to stop. I keep trying to calm myself down. All I know to do is make a list and check it over and over and reassure myself that I'm okay. I'm lying in bed with an ice pack on my chest right now.